Coming Clean Staying Clean #5 is another foray into alcoholism.
If there’s one thing that all stories of alcoholics have, it’s a tipping point. Something that finally emotionally moves them to pause and reflect. Most seasoned alcoholics and vets from alcohol rehab centers call this “the moment of clarity”. A singular moment that exists at a crossroad junction where perspective and perception finally meet and continue down the road as reality.
This is a sobering moment and a moment that recovering alcoholics are often thankful to have experienced. For Jerrod, our latest member of the Coming Clean, Staying Clean series, he has his daughter and wife to thank for this moment.
This is Coming Clean Staying Clean #5 – Jerrod. More stories of alcoholics who got sober.
1 – What was the moment you had when you realized enough was enough and you had to get sober?
I was sick and tired of being sick all the time. My marriage of 18 years was falling apart. My wife and kids avoided me like the plague. I didn’t care if I lived or died at that point. The final straw was when my 12-year-old daughter walked in on our cat which had died suddenly. It shook her up like nothing I’ve seen before. My wife said to me, “you see how much this affected her. Imagine her walking in on you dead.”
2 – Did you go to an alcohol treatment center or alcohol detox center?
I found a detox center online and verified that they take my insurance. The guy that runs the place actually picked me up from my house and drove me. 7 days there. Then I went straight to a 28-day residential program, then over 2 weeks PHP. Now I do IOP 3 days a week 3 hours a day. All covered by my insurance with no deductible.
3 – What was the most difficult part of sobriety in the beginning?
It was do much easier than I imagined. They kept us busy in detox and rehab. Changing the way I think, especially my internal monologue’s vocabulary, was tough. So was dealing with my new free time.
4 – What positive changes have you noticed in your life?
My marriage is better than it has been for as long as I can remember. My children respect me and don’t avoid me. I’m not sick anymore. I feel energetic and great, I do an hour of yoga 3 days a week and go to the gym other days (I just got back from the gym actually). I volunteer for a veteran’s hospice in my free time now.
5 – What advice do you have for anyone considering sobriety but are scared?
I always thought I’d be the last person to pull this off. I’m 40 and haven’t been sober 90 days straight since I was about 15. I stopped craving it all the time sooner than I thought I would. I’m fitting in the clothes I wore in high school now. I haven’t been in this good of shape since I was 22. If you don’t want to do it for yourself, do it for your family. They deserve it, too.
6 – Is there anything else you would like to add?
I feel so mentally clear lately. I’ve gotten more writing done in the last 3 months than I had done in the last 10 years. I’m trusted again. My self-esteem is way up and continuously rising. I feel like I can do anything again. I never imagined that I’d be here in only 3 months. I can’t imagine where I’ll be in 12 months, or 3 years.
Jerrod’s story is not so different from a lot of our stories. Drinking at an early age, thinking that you cannot get sober, and finally seeing the positive results when choosing sobriety. Stories of alcoholics have common themes because as unique as each of us are, alcohol brings out the same demons. It robs us of our individuality and future.
We want to thank Jerrod for his contribution and openness. This was Coming Clean Staying Clean #5 – Jerrod.