We recently reached out to more individuals in recovery as a part of our Coming Clean & Staying Clean series. Amber has recently celebrated 18 months in sobriety, and she has started working at a recovery center within her community.
We hope that by sharing her story, Amber will be able to inspire others to stick to their recovery. If you or someone you know needs help getting sober, our Boca Raton drug rehab can help.
My name is Amber S. I’m an addict & alcoholic.
When was the moment you realized you needed to get sober?
Well, my story has a lot of bottoms. But, my lowest bottom was well before what I thought my bottom was. I realized I needed to get sober when I was in complete delirium living in a park. I only had the clothes on my back and was selling myself for a rock of crack cocaine. I remember using the park’s restroom to clean myself up and looked into the broken mirror. I’d never look at my face. But this time I did. That was the first time I actually saw myself. I was out of my mind. It was that time that I saw myself. Recognized my disease. Recognized myself as an addict and an alcoholic. But, before all that I realized I was selling my soul a long time before that. Those actions we did when we were ‘experimenting’. Those early signs. These meaningless things all lead up to what my life had become.
How did your relationships change when you got sober?
Well, the most meaningful relationships took time and are still in progress. First and foremost, the relationship with myself had to be made. I needed to learn who I was again. What my morals were, my ambitions, my emotions and the meaning of my story. That’s something I’m doing daily through journaling. My family lives in Texas. My home state. We text almost daily, talk a couple times a week. It wasn’t like that at first. I had my nuclear family support me through rehab. They answered my calls and participated with calls that included my therapist in rehab. My mother attends ALNON occasionally. That’s the biggest thing. Us as addicts and alcoholics work so hard on ourselves but sometimes our family doesn’t. Another lesson I learned. Not everyone you care about will do the footwork like you did. Now, I’m almost at 18 months [sober] and have a solid group of women I can lean on in hard times. I have a home group of people I see weekly to vent to. My relationships now are two ways. Instead of my befriending people just so I can use them, I now can lean on and be there for others. It’s really beautiful.
What are the biggest challenges you face in maintaining sobriety?
It’s not so challenging now, however, working in the recovery field I’ve seen and have had to face my drug of choice. The challenge comes to the fact that it’s so easy to turn to the drug/drink when things are tough. To maintain my sobriety and to combat the challenges I face daily I make sure I do the same four things I’ve done since I became sober. I pray and meditate, write in my God Box, open a page in the Big Book or basic text then I read a paragraph and journal a paragraph and I call/text my sponsor. I do these actions in the morning and in the evening. This is how I maintain my sobriety.
What are some unexpected positive changes of sobriety?
What would you say to someone who is just starting out in recovery?
I would say keep your ears open. Be ready to hear something in a meeting that might change your life. Live by HOW: Honestly, Open Mindedness and Willingness.
Thank you and god bless.
Treatment Alternatives would like to thank Amber for sharing her story of recovery. We hope that her story can inspire others on their journey of recovery. Read more Coming Clean & Staying Clean stories on our addiction recovery blog. If you are ready to get sober, or if you have a loved one who needs help with treatment, it’s time to reach out for help. Contact our cocaine treatment center in Boca Raton today.